I can't even begin to imagine being paralyzed by anxiety in my own home, I'm so lucky I'm not you. But you are powerful, you still think and behave in the manner of someone who not only gives a shit but who wants to heal and I hope you reach that goal, at least to some degree. You are loved.
I’m not powerful at all, I can’t make a day without getting upset and crying, and I can’t even get myself to uni without a friend picking me up and having breakfast or coffee with me first… I’m pretty pathetic… and just stuck in this prison of anxiety and sadness that I’ve made my own home… It really sucks, because I want to go out and live and enjoy life again but whenever I try I just can’t… I usually can’t even make it out my house, and when I do during the day for lunches or breakfasts/coffees with a friend before uni then I usually feel sad the whole time anyway… I’m just so sick of being here. I’m a loser, and I’m never going to accomplish anything with my life… I doubt if I’ll ever get to have a family or a home of my own even… it’s just going to be a huge waste… it’s all my fault… and its so frustrating to want to be happy and want to go out with friends and live and love life but be too upset to even just go out… I kind of wish I’d just never been born… it would have been easier, so so much easier.