February 2012
“I have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine and rage the likes...”
– Mary Shelley, Frankenstein. (via riverran)
#mary shelley #this quote though #it’s all kinds of wonderful #hey remember that time one asswipe was like you have 30 seconds to name something invented by a woman… #…and Mary was like SCIENCE FICTION MOTHERFUCKERS #that was awesome #thanks Mary Shelley...
My friend rang me this morning and told me Radiohead were coming to Australia, and asked if I wanted to go with her to Melbourne to see them, I said yes so she bought the tickets on the spot… I didn’t even smile when she told me they were coming, or even after we had bought the tickets… its not even like its a good numb, still feel crap, i just dont feel good.
Another night of tears unnoticed by friends, by family, another night i feel the horrid sting of anxiety… how long until he gives in to the offers, how long until he goes back to how he used to be… how long until i hear about it or he tells me and all my worst nightmares come true… how long until i hear what i fear so much is coming, and how sick and sad and disgusted i will...
You were supposed to have loved me for as long as we lived… why… why did things not work out like we both dreamed they would… why no jack jack… why no place of our own… all the things we talked about… all the dreams we had… why must the things we desire the most be taken from us…
“The mask, if worn long enough, will become the face.”
– Stephen Fry (The Fry Chronicles)
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and once again I can’t shake off how much i miss you, so i guess my only real option is to have a shower and just cry and hurt myself in there until i dont care anymore, and im tired enough to just crash when my head hits the pillow… i wish i were a cyber-man… emotions and feelings are silly…
I don’t want to sleep just because I know how hard tomorrows going to be for me. How weird and saddening it’s going to feel to go to uni then come home and not see him… and that’s how it’s going to feel every single day of uni for the rest of the year. I hate feeling so hollow… trying to be happy takes so much energy. People say cheer up, but what are you...
“Sometimes you climb out of bed in the morning and you think, I’m not going to...”
– Charles Bukowski (via explaterate)
When I think about you, and it all gets too much, I cry, and I cry, and I cry… then if the pain doesn’t go away I slice, I slice then I go numb… numbness is my paradise from the pain of memories and feeling.
destructivedevices:
oasis - wonderwall
I remember the things I never said
descended-:
like how I felt you slipping away, out of my control, and all I could do was watch. all of the things I desperately wanted to say to you, but couldn’t.
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Life, love, and the disappointments in between… There are so many beautiful girls around, so many that are skinnier and funnier and 1000 times prettier than me. I was so lucky to find someone so cute, and kind, and funny and just generally great. But then I had to go and fuck it up… and now im doomed to either be alone for the rest of my life, or have to settle for someone lower than...
I still can’t believe he broke his promise. I really did for a moment truly believe that I could trust him… then he was able to destroy it within seconds, and truly make me want to die…
It sucks when a song is ruined for you. How a really good song that you used to love and enjoy listening to now reminds you of someone and you just feel so sick to your stomach when you hear it or see it because you miss them so much, and so badly miss the time in which you heard it/when you were with them…
fauns: I often imagine myself floating in a red... →
danseurs:
I often imagine myself floating in a red velvet sea, my body perfectly poised, pale and calm and slightly blue, as a result of being partly dissolved into the cerulean waters of never-ending vastness. I often imagine myself drowning; the fragile strings holding my limbs together slightly fraying,…
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Tomorrow night should be alright, going to Skullduggery, a uni related night at HQ where everyone goes to get absolutely smashed and to party and dance. Drinks are $5 or less and shots are like $1-2. It’s supposed to be one of the biggest uni nights of the year (and if you consider the aues pub crawl, thats quite a feat), and THE biggest event of O’Week. They’re also having UV...
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Saturday night really proved to me how much I don’t care about my own safety anymore. I really didn’t care. Normally I would be careful who I’m around in town, where I go, what I do, who might look shady, if I’m in danger at all, to avoid doing stupid stuff, or stuff that could get me hurt…. but Saturday night, didn’t give a rat’s arse. I was talking to...
