December 2011
Anonymous asked: Because I'm not a stranger. I just hope that it all works out for you soon <3
Anonymous asked: If he thinks he can just replace with any other girl, then you really don't need him. The boy you'll spend the rest of your life with, couldn't think of living with anyone but you. Don't give up. You'll find someone even more amazing than him. You are an amazing and beautiful young lady, don't settle for someone who thinks you're just like any other girl.
Anonymous asked: you're still young, you'll be falling in and out of love all the time. not saying that what you're feeling right now for him isn't love, but one day you'll look back and think that you were put through too much trouble. you'll pull through i'm sure of it.
I suppose I shouldn’t really be surprised if he doesn’t want to try again… I mean, I’m not anything am I… if I were anything special then why would he give up? exactly, he wouldn’t… I’m just another girl… there’s about another 3.5 billion on the planet just as ordinary as me…
Anonymous asked: WIll you ever learn to love again?
If only he could understand that I can’t hurt him again… I don’t have it in me after this..
I’ve decided that I’m not giving up. I love him. I need him. He’s too important to me to give up. I’ll keep trying. I just need him to open up so that I could maybe get back in again. If he’d let me… I think at the moment though he’s trying to move on and distance himself from me so he doesn’t get hurt anymore.. which makes it impossible to try and...
I’m sick of the pain so I’m trying to trick myself for the time being by faking some positivity in my head… saying that I don’t actually know what he’s decided until he’s told me. Making myself ignore how the way he usually chats to me over chat is completely different and distant. Thinking that even if he’s decided that he just wants to be friends that...
I wonder how long I’ll have to wait until he contacts me about seeing me for “the chat”… the chat where he either makes me more happy than I’ve ever been in my life and says that he wants to try again, or make me the most miserable I’ve ever been in my life and say he just wants to be friends or not see me at all… days? weeks? He said he’s made his...
I just wish he’d talk to me again like he did the other night, even if its just online.. calling me baby.. making me feel like maybe he wants me… talking with him the other night kinda felt like how we used to talk when we were going out, made me feel happier… something else I miss… him talking to me and feeling like he cares for me romantically… like knowing hes...
I am not okay.
I can’t deal with this anymore… I can’t deal with the idea of him saying he doesn’t want to try… I feel like my hearts going to explode… I can feel like there’s not enough luck in the world to make him change his mind… he thinks that there’ll be less pain if were friends.. there won’t be, it fucking hurts all the time, all i think about...
My friend Gary’s here so I’m off to the pub! :D yeeeeeeeeah
Just thinking of the whole “moments that take your breath away” picture reminds me of the time that he took me to Sfera’s 1877 Restaurant for dinner because we had both had a few really shit days. It was a complete surprise, he made me blindfold myself, but I had guessed that he was taking me there… but a part of me wasn’t sure, it’s a pretty expensive and...
I hate seeing him online and wanting to talk to him, but knowing I shouldn’t… incase it annoys him, or I’m disturbing his thinking. Or that he’s only online because he wants to talk to friends and feel good and not to talk to me… I don’t like this… I care for him so much, and all I want is for him to want me back. Every moment I wish I could cuddle him. Or...
I don’t know if I can be really bothered going out, or if I’ll want to stay once I get there… but I don’t think it’s okay for me to be by myself at the moment. I think too much by myself. I guess I should do what most guys do when they’re sad about a break up, just immerse myself in stuff. Seems to be working for him. He doesn’t seem to be missing me as...
I wish I was in his position. I wish I held all the power as to what’s happening. I wish he loved and wanted me and it was up to me to decide. I know that no matter how scared I would be, that I would try and let him make it right. I would let him try again. I don’t see and really understand why people give up on something when they are the ones that have the choice. I don’t get...
Funny how just a 20 minute chat with him online can make me feel so much better, and give me a new hope. But I also need to realise that he might not choose what I want him to choose… he might not want to try again. I need to remember that before I let myself become too happy. Before I think too many happy thoughts about hugging him, and kissing him. Thoughts about seeing him, and being...
It’s annoying in a weird way that it takes you losing something to realise how important it is to you. How even the normal things that don’t seem that amazing all the time when you’re with someone, aren’t as good, or are even horrible to try and get through when you don’t have the person you love to be there with you. I know that if it turns out that he doesn’t...
Love.
It is so powerful. A driving force that does not let you give up hope. A force that gives you strength to get through the hardships in your life. If you ever have only one reason or goal for living, make it to love and be loved. Because it is that connection with someone, that deep rooted need, desire, want, and care for another individual that makes you feel more alive than anything you will ever...
