Another night of tears unnoticed by friends, by family, another night i feel the horrid sting of anxiety… how long until he gives in to the offers, how long until he goes back to how he used to be… how long until i hear about it or he tells me and all my worst nightmares come true… how long until i hear what i fear so much is coming, and how sick and sad and disgusted i will feel… and the pain… the pain that will inevitably come…